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HOW
IT'S DONE
ODE
TO THE THOUSANDTH FUCK
It's
possible that, seening that there is a problem, sooner or later
great geniuses will begin to fill this dark gap in our culture with
tons of cinematic, literary and poetical masterpieces.
Odes to the thousandth fuck will be written, when he recognizes
every little wrinkle on her eyes and she knows exactly how to scratch
his back. We will see the delirium of fulfillment in technicolour,
the Ślast step' when her nipples expand in his mind revealing to
him the essential harmony of the universe.
However, before reaching a state of ecstasy there is another problem
to overcome. A block that needs to be dissolved, an enormous block
that is in the midst of our culture like a monolithic mountain that
prevents us from seeing the horizon. This block is made up of the
effects of sexual repression.
Repressed sexuality, apart from the whole sexual relationship in
general, conditions in particular the capacity to imagine, plan
and experience a continuous relationship as a couple.
A sexual relationship is for men and women, as for all other mammals,
a form of relationship that coincides with adult age. Animals reach
this level of socialization through the gradual experimentation
of ever more intense and deeper levels of sexuality.
The problem with human beings is that we reach an adult age to experience
sexuality as a couple without having previously experienced all
those initial encounters of unrepressed sexuality and sexual exploration
that constitute the natural preamble.
The denial of sexuality is so violent and decisive that a void of
experience is created in childhood, a dissatisfaction and repression
of desires that spill disastrously into adolescence.
Just think that males reach the peak of their sexual power between
14 and 17 years of age, but generally only later do they succeed
in acquiring shreds of satisfaction for themselves. Hence, the intermediate
phases in sexual development remain unsatisfied.
Human beings in adult age discover that drifting in their minds
there are bits of childhood desires and adolescent drives that continue
to surface, spoiling their ability to devote themselves constructively
to complete love.
I think that much sexual behaviour like fetishism and sadism stem
directly from being embittered as a result of incomplete or denied
childhood experiences.
It is not a phenomenon that concerns only extreme behaviour. It
seems to me that our whole sexuality suffers from childishness and
immaturity. We are tied respectively to external appearances, superficiality,
insecurity, and consumerism that are typical of an emotional state
that is stuck at the pre-adolescent phase.
In practice, the tragedy is that, besides everything else, we continue
to pursue the fantasies arising from the dissatisfaction of childhood
and adolescent sexual desires. We're unable to obtain pleasure in
a relationship, because in reality we don't desire it at all, it
doesn't interest us.
We madly desire that little girl that we saw at the age of six.
We wanted to bring her up close to us, to touch her to see if she
was real and... roll on the ground, see what she tasted like, smell
her... that's all we wanted. There was nothing wrong with it. Instead
our fears prevented us from doing so. That's why we like women with
a small nose and a child-like face like Brooke Shields.
We haven't been able to satisfy the sexual impulses of our early
childhood and these desires have stuck with us, growing abnormally
and unhealthily through the years. For this reason when we leap
on a woman, we are only capable of a series of disorderly and confused
gestures. Our sexuality is a series of disconnected gestures because
our sexual desire is still at a childhood stage.
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